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I howl and I whine.


I have issues with jobs. I don't know what's wrong with me. Every time I get a full time job, I start having nightmares about it. I'm on my sixth week of training at my new job and I can't stop dreaming about trying to fix people's phones. It's driving me crazy. I end up feeling like I haven't slept at all and being pissed off because I just spent all night doing what felt like work and then going into work and doing more work.

This always happens. I can't help but wonder if it's one of the reasons I have trouble holding a job.

It does not happen nearly as often when I'm only working part-time. In fact, it's only happened once when I was part-time.

I can't take this. It's making me cranky and pissy all day.


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Sep. 26th, 2008 12:57 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear this, JC. I can't really relate. I don't think I've ever had nightmares about work, but I do know that when I have nightmares, a lot of my day is ruined when I wake up.

Do you feel bad before you go to bed? I know it probably sounds really obvious, but it doesn't help the situation at all if you go to bed all stressed out and pissed off: so, doing something to help you relax so you're actually ready for bed, might help.

I hope that you feel better. -Hugs-
Sep. 27th, 2008 01:20 am (UTC)
Why not just try having two part-time jobs?

Sounds stupid, but a thought. Probably a worthless one.
Sep. 27th, 2008 11:17 pm (UTC)
Just hold off on feeling anything at all for seven years, then I'll be a psychologist and I'll give you sessions for free. *nods*

I really wish there was something more I could do besides hug you. You need the pay, and the benefits that come from full-time work. It's the fucking system, man. >:(

Shoujo has awesome advice, by the way. I'm trying to get into a routine where I quiet my mind for about 15 minutes before I head to bed at night. I haven't been able to do it as much as I'd like to, but the first night I did it and for a whole day after I felt really refreshed and good. I felt the difference big time on day two, so it seems to work. And it made me REALLY sleepy. I hit the couch and passed out clean.
Dec. 19th, 2008 03:09 pm (UTC)
Words From a Friend
I know your feeling, mostly due the fact that the idea of working, drives a bit crazy. I mean, whose fraked up idea was it that we should have to pay for something like shelter or food, right.
But I'm getting side tracked :)
You pretty much answered your own question, part time is the way to go.
For example I've ot this friend whose 100% comfortable with only working 18-25 hours at a high end retail store. But they've also come to grips with not have the more fanciful in life, but to each their own right. The most important thing to know is "Am I comfortable with my lifestyle?" then only do as much as needed to be comfortable. :)
That's my 2 cents on it...
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